"Make no mistake about it - enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It's seeing though the façade of pretense. It the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true."
-Adyashanti
This past weekend was one of the best weekends I've had in awhile. I can't go into much detail, but I definitely had an enlightenment experience with one of my best friends, Megan.
We felt something happen to us that we were not expecting, but it has given me hope for the existence of everything in the universe. I think like me, most people have fears of many things, because we're all just here on earth, trying to find out what we're here for, and wanting to know the truth. I found that in my personal life, religion was not the answer. Religion can be a very great thing for many people, but it wasn't for me. Since moving to Washington, I've had a change of heart, and have tried opening my mind. I have been pondering, researching, and looking for answers about why I'm here. I need a personal experience, and I will trust what I feel over a religious person's (or any other person's) experiences.
With the experience we had, I was able to feel so euphoric, and see myself as I really am. My fears of the world and of myself left me, and I was able to focus on what is important to me: love, family and friends, and this universe. I was able to see my worth, and know that physical appearance does not matter at all - we are attracted to souls that are alike to us. We are all just souls in these bodies, but we are not these bodies.
Sometimes, I feel so small and worthless with watching many documentaries about the universe, but I realized we are all actually so big and important to the universe - each and every one of us. One example: you can read about traits that are passed down in families, one included is physical abuse. It is proven that it can be passed down for many, many generations. If a person is abused by a family member, that person has a greater chance of abusing later in life as well. The beautiful thing is, we all have amazing and powerful brains, and we can break that chain. We can create anything we can imagine, and if we believe something is real, we can really make it happen for ourselves, and can change the chain. This is just one example of how we can change the world, even if we are just one tiny part of the universe.
I also realized that we are all so full of love, and I know every person has it in them. The thing is, we can either be driven by love, or by fear, and I know a lot of us definitely make choices and decisions out of fear. If we make decisions out of love, we can improve ourselves, and those people around us. Many times, fear can completely cover what love we think we have, and can make it harder to channel that love, and to be okay with whatever our cycle of life may be.
In this experience I had, I also was able to feel okay about everything once I could remove my fears and blockages from myself. I've always been afraid of death, because none of us currently living can really, truly know what will happen after this life. Now, I feel okay with being unsure of it. Since we are souls in these bodies, death will be a freedom, a freedom from mental issues, chemical imbalances, physical issues, etc. So many people suffer from many various diseases or conditions, and just want to feel free of it. I'm not saying I want to die anytime soon, but when it happens to me, or one of my loved ones, I will know that it is okay, and this is what life is. I believe death is just a door, and even though we all die alone, I think it will be a beautiful experience, and I think our consciousness will continue to exist forever, and continue growing and expanding.
Upon returning to work from this crazy weekend, I realized something new about me. I'm 22-years-old, and I work with many older people who I have a very hard time relating to - they all have kids, are married, settled down, etc., and I have a hard time talking to any of them about similar interests/hobbies. After having this experience, I realized that I can still have love towards everyone, even if we have absolutely nothing in common. Why is that? Because I now know for myself that everyone is here for the same reason, trying to find our place is this extremely mysterious and unknown world and universe. We all have our ways of coping and dealing with any trauma we deal with in our lives, but the truth is, none of us are completely certain of what reality is, and we are all here just doing our best. How have I not been able to see this before? Sometimes we just have too much blockage, too many walls, too many hardships or rough times, and too many distractions to really see, and I'm so glad I got to have an experience to overlook those obstacles.
Be so thankful for all of your choices, decisions, and experiences, because that is what shapes you into your very unique self, and breaks you away from what you are not. Some of the worst times of my life have benefited me in ways I couldn't have ever imagined, and I know my life would be a lot different had those bad experiences not happened. I try my best to "go with the flow", and know that what happens is supposed to happen, and we will be able to take all experiences and grow from them.
Upon returning to work from this crazy weekend, I realized something new about me. I'm 22-years-old, and I work with many older people who I have a very hard time relating to - they all have kids, are married, settled down, etc., and I have a hard time talking to any of them about similar interests/hobbies. After having this experience, I realized that I can still have love towards everyone, even if we have absolutely nothing in common. Why is that? Because I now know for myself that everyone is here for the same reason, trying to find our place is this extremely mysterious and unknown world and universe. We all have our ways of coping and dealing with any trauma we deal with in our lives, but the truth is, none of us are completely certain of what reality is, and we are all here just doing our best. How have I not been able to see this before? Sometimes we just have too much blockage, too many walls, too many hardships or rough times, and too many distractions to really see, and I'm so glad I got to have an experience to overlook those obstacles.
Be so thankful for all of your choices, decisions, and experiences, because that is what shapes you into your very unique self, and breaks you away from what you are not. Some of the worst times of my life have benefited me in ways I couldn't have ever imagined, and I know my life would be a lot different had those bad experiences not happened. I try my best to "go with the flow", and know that what happens is supposed to happen, and we will be able to take all experiences and grow from them.
I may sound crazy to some of you, but this was such a real experience for me, and I want to share with anyone who may also be looking for their own answer of our existence, and may want their own personal experience. I know this experience I had was just a small peak into what we can all have, and I will continue to study, search, love, experiment, gain, and keep an open-mind :) The knowledge we're looking for out there is somewhere in here, in our minds, our consciousness, in us.
Also, some food for the soul for all of you. I recently saw this art for the first time (by the amazing and extremely talented artist Alex Grey), and completely fell in love. Alex Grey was able to put what was in his mind onto physical matter, and I feel so complete and happy when I look at this:
"We Are The Universe Experiencing Itself" - Alex Grey
Also, some food for the soul for all of you. I recently saw this art for the first time (by the amazing and extremely talented artist Alex Grey), and completely fell in love. Alex Grey was able to put what was in his mind onto physical matter, and I feel so complete and happy when I look at this:
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